At the close of 2018, a fleeting thought of “should I
try that again?” resurfaced. I shot it
down pretty quickly with reminders of how that had gone in the past. So I sketched out a few basic and “easy”
goals for the new year and felt pretty prepared. Then, about two days into 2019, I sensed a
word placed on my mind: SATISFIED.
The conversation in my head was something like this:
Good
word, but I already decided I’m not doing that thing again.
But
did you know that you need to be satisfied in this area?
Stop. It’s such a trendy idea anyway. I don’t like trendy.
I’ve
seen your remodeling preferences. You like trendy.
And then a few minutes later… Ok, you’re right. I need that
word this year.
Once I thought over it for a few minutes, I realized
that satisfied was exactly what I
needed. I needed to learn how to be
satisfied in the way that God has and is writing my personal story; to be satisfied with the people who are in my life; to be satisfied in my past, present, and future; to be satisfied in who I am now as well as who I will be later, with space and grace in between for growing. And this time the word was planted in my heart. The word even invaded my passwords so that it could be before me as a reminder
whenever possible. Even still, I realize
that a whole year has passed, and I have certainly not conquered a
satisfied outlook on life. But I feel as
though this year of focus on satisfaction has allowed for the beginning of an
ongoing journey.
A couple months later, I did a doubletake and noticed
that a second word was consistently recurring in my thoughts and even
influencing my decisions. You know, God
is tricky to sneak not one but TWO words into my year. The second word—INTENTIONAL—was just as
deeply placed on my heart. Things like
reaching out to people, actively investing in friends and
family, serving my nieces and nephews, and creating a healthy lifestyle are not things that just happen. Sometimes it’s for lack of desire and
sometimes it is for lack of time. That’s
why being intentional is so, so important and necessary. Again, this past year of focusing on being
intentional is not a completed journey, but I have taken the initial steps so
that I can continue allowing this word to impact my life.
(By the way, I rapidly failed all of my more specific
goals for 2019 and never ended up picking them up again.)
While I want to continue developing “satisfied” and
“intentional,” God has already given me a new word for 2020! I am excited that He is the one taking the
initiative on this because that is what really causes the success in the
end.
I’ve obviously changed my
mind on the whole “word for the year” thing.
It actually is a cool idea, even if it is trendy. But my caution to you is not to pick a word
yourself. In a sense, let the word pick
you. Rather than stressing over locating
the perfect word, wait until something is placed deep enough to stay planted
all year…and then for the rest of your life.
Wow!! This impacted me! Thank you for writing this out and sharing your journey. I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful sister who is intentional in all that she does and strives to be satisfied with where God has you. Love you so much!
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Thanks, Keren! :) So imperfect, but thankful to be a work in progress!
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